Today will not be my usual post about breaking free and obesity…nope… Today, I’m celebrating! Today, I’m going to give my testimony.
I spent a lot of time in the world searching and looking for something…I almost killed myself looking for it. Death, grief, loss and abandonment caused me to search the world for something that never existed…LOVE. I dated all the wrong men looking for Love. I searched for a career looking for Love. I indulged in things hoping to fix myself, but ended up more broken. It wasn’t until I crashed and burned did I stop searching for Love, and started searching for God.
After having my heart shattered to pieces and tossed aside like garbage, I had no more to give, so I gave my shattered heart to God. It was during this time He comforted me, put my broken pieces back together and began to make me whole again…and this took years…years of singleness…times of isolation…tons of fasting and praying. But it was during this time, I found my a true love…my first true love…for the first time…I fell madly in Love with Jesus…The Lover Of My Soul. It was an intimacy unlike no other. It was during this time of singleness, I truly understood what it felt like to be loved and from there, God was making me whole again. It was during this time, God was preparing me for something greater.
Over time, I saw my friends dating, some were married and I was very, very, very single and at times lonely. God had even gone so far to tell me not to date…He was preserving me for something..so I spent several, several, several years single and celibate…but I trusted God and I waited for Him to bring forth the promise of a husband, a companion.
From the beginning, there was a young man that was interested in me from the time we were kids up until our adulthood…he watched me from afar…then attempted for years to get my attention, but I was too messed up, blinded and shattered from the world, I couldn’t even make an attempt to respond to his interest.
Over time, after the dust settled, the blinders were removed from my eyes and my healing had come, God placed him in my heart…but I stopped seeing him around…so I hid those feelings in my heart.
I would always look for him and from time to time saw Him, but didn’t have enough nerve to tell him my interest. One day, I decided to sit outside hoping to see him again, but my pride got the best of me and I said, “I’m not waiting out here for anyone, I’m going upstairs!” As soon as I said that and proceeded inside, the Holy Spirit said to me, “Go back outside and sit on the bench, He’s coming…”
Bewildered, I went back outside, feeling kinda silly, but sat back on the bench. To occupy myself, I called a friend and no more than 2 minutes later did He not only come outside, but sat next to me on that bench…that night changed the both of our lives forever…and we’ve never, ever, been the same since…It was the appointed time…we waited for this all our lives.
I knew something about him was different than any man I’ve ever dated…It was strange…when I looked at him, it was like I was looking at myself…when I touched his hand, it was like I was touching my own hand. When I looked in his eyes, I saw my own reflection…it was so crazy it made me nervous, so I went into prayer because I didn’t know what I was feeling.
I began to fast and pray and during one fast, God revealed to me who He was….the handwriting was on the wall…he confirmed it all around…I knew in my soul he was my husband…God not only confirmed it to me, but later him. Our parents knew from the beginning, our friends, and our spiritual parents once they began counseling us, so, when we decided to court, we knew without a shadow of a doubt, it was God putting this thing together.
Four years later, after God finished working on us individually, we married April 11, 2009, one of the greatest moments of my life…TGBTG!
God had mercy on me…the way my life and relationships were heading…I could have really found myself banged up, beaten, broken, dead and a host of other things. God had mercy on me…on us.
Not only did Jesus save my life and make me whole again, but sent me my soul mate…someone God gave me from the beginning of time…someone that has loved me from the beginning, loved me when I was thin and now obese…loved me when I was well and when I became sick…loved me when I was financially stable to losing my job…loved me thru my insecurities and abandonment issues…someone who is kind and loving towards me, a great father to our children, son to my mom, my greatest best friend, comrade in this Christian race, through hell and high water, continuing to love, be in love, be friends and even like each other.
Today, We Celebrate Our 7th Anniversary of Marriage!!!!
To God Be The Glory For His Hand Of Mercy On Our Lives…Over Our Marriage And Over Our Family. 7 years… New Beginnings…Greater Things To Come in Jesus!
This is my testimony, This is My Story.
Check out our 7 Year Anniversary Video
Join me for “Don’t Let Fear Hold You In Paralysis” Part 5 coming soon. As always, be encouraged, stay connected, fight and Let’s Become Free Together.
In His Name,
Ke’Shawn Adamson
B.O.O.M!
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