God is so gracious. Thursday, June 27, my husband and I renewed our vows of 10 years. It’s something we talked about since we walked down the isle April 11, 2009, but God brought it all to pass and even more than the first wedding, it had so much more meaning.
I feel very unworthy of this gift, in my husband and just being married. I made ALOT of mistakes choosing what I thought was the best. After hitting my head on the brick wall with the men I chose, I resolved to let The Lord pick him this time and He did. He gave me His best.
Sometimes, God’s trying to give us His gifts, but in our limited perception, we don’t see what He’s giving us as a gift. We’ll present The Lord with our request, but if it’s not packaged how we think it should be, we’ll automatically not consider it, thus, discarding his gift as unworthy.
I almost squandered several gifts The Lord was trying to give me because it wasn’t what I wanted, it wasn’t the right timing or I’d reason that thing to death that it was no longer valuable.
I did that with motherhood. I wasn’t ready to become a mom when I became one. I was in the process of losing my job, I was obese, the apartment too small, not enough money etc. I was dying to be a mother, but I wasn’t ready at that moment, but God thought different and sent my baby girl. I thought I had joy before, but my life would be so void and empty without that addition to our family and that lil sparkle and bundle of joy. Through her, I’ve grown in my faith, my life richer, The Lord used her to teach me some foundational lessons in Him and, my worship and intercessory prayer has deepened. I honed spiritual gifts having her.
The same goes for my husband. He was just starting out in his career, a young single parent, struggling to make ends meet and trying to get on his feet. I was accomplished, several degrees, managing an office etc. I was looking for what the world says is important, money, status, degrees etc. Chasing the things of the world, I almost missed my husband and the gift The Lord was giving me in him.
Don’t get me wrong, I wasn’t wrong for wanting someone to have what I worked hard to accomplish and you do want someone who can bring something to the table. But sometimes, God has different plans. He’ll use us, as women, to bring out the best in that man, to help to build them up, to be a helpmate to them to get them to that higher level and vice versa.
Initially, I didn’t get that blue Tiffany box with that big white bow on top, but over the years, I have it now. He’s licensed Minister, Licensed Drug Counselor, College student with a host of certifications and recognitions earning a good living taking care of His family and proudly doing so. We built that together and more in love because of it.
Sometimes, He’ll allow those struggles you go through together to bind you closer. Sometimes, He’ll use those trials to give you perseverance and grit to make you stronger and wiser as a couple. Sometimes, He’ll leave certain things undone so as a team, you can appreciate one another more and build your life together.
The other men I dated couldn’t love me because they weren’t assigned to me. The truth is, plain and simple, they were just too shallow and for smaller things, the commitment wasn’t there. In marriage, life happens…death, life, finances, illness, obesity all manor of life’s hardships, the most horrific things happen, and through it all, it’s made my husband and I stronger when most, would have left.
But God is gracious, He not only gave me what I needed, but as I surrendered to Him, He gave me what I wanted in my Husband once I was open to His ways, how He wanted to do things and became obedient in following Him even when I didn’t understand.
If God is speaking to you about something, trust Him and surrender. He may be trying to give you what you’ve never had, His greatest gift, His greatest blessing and, something you really really need. Don’t do as I’ve done, reason the blessing away and almost, miss a part of your calling. It’s not a matter of what we see, it’s a matter what we know our Big God can do.
There’s more for us as we get out of our own way and receive the gifts Christ’s trying to give us.
Truly grateful to be sharing my life and dreams with a Richard, He’s truly my gift from Heaven.
Continue to Join me as I share with you what Christ is sharing with me about overcoming. As always, Be Encouraged, Stay Connected, Fight & Let’s become free together.
Yours in Christ,
Ke’Shawn Adamson
B.O.O.M!
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This song touches my heart deeply, makes me grateful to Christ and reminds me of my love for him but also, reminds me of my Richard. Enjoy!
